ok just woke up with a mouth full of soarness:( - October 18th, 2005
hey there guys, well finally my doctor appt is today so the doctor can tell me what is up with my mouth! it has been killingme, and the worst time it bothers me is all noght! i cant sleep really at all. i just feel soo miserable and i want the pain to stop! 
Ok so i just brushed my teeth, gargeled with some mouthwash and took my medicine, now eating jello! i cant wait till i am better and can go out to a restruant and eat a big juicy steak but what i really want to do is suck on a big juicy cock! lol yeah that makes me feel better but it doesnt cuz i freaking cant do it:( i want u now! hehe ok well im going to tel u what i have plained, so im going to get a shower and get myself all wet adn stuff, then play with my pussy;) hehe am i teasing yet;)? ok so after i rub myself down with lotion all over and ill get dressed, then head over my girlfriends house so she can drive me there to the doctor wait and get checked out, i better wear my skirt for this one;) hehe then we will prolly go back to her house or mine and chill and hang outsince i have been miserable:( I wish u could take me and take care of me for a few days, but i bet i would end up drivin u buts!lol oh well i doubt i would;) well im going to check up onm emails and see what is up and thanks for all the get well emails from my memebers u all are soo cool and thanks it means alot! kisses and talk to u soon;)
going to the doctor tomorrow:( wish me luck - October 17th, 2005
hey there everyone, so how is everyone today? hhmm did u miss me any? well i have been just the usual cant eat and have been sleeping and thats about it:( i can still feel these stitches in my mouth, it sucks bad. oh well hopefully when i go to the docotor tomorrow he will tell me how much longer ill be in pain! im serious, i cant deal with this:( i know its something little but still, i cant help it. oh well other then laying around i thought i would tell u all i wont be having my show tonight either but starting this sunday ill be back in show!lol i just didnt want to have my show tonight and be a total boring person, and plus it hurts when i talk alittle, so i dont want to make things worse before i got tomorrow, well im going to try and eat something little and then lay back down, hope u think about me alittle and ill be on here tomorrow with some hopefully good news;) hehe ok well talk to u soon,kisses
laying around on sunday:( - October 16th, 2005
hey there everyone, well today i thought i would had felt better but in a way i felt worse when i woke up:( So i got up i rinsed my mouth with salt water and then took some of my medicine. Uho i was getting low on some of it. I had a refill i could get so i had one of my friends run to the store and get it refilled for me. I was soo hurting i didnt want to talk to anyone, and i really didnt. I did text tho. heeh SO i got my medication and then watched football all day really. I cant belive steelers lost!:( the benglas did pretty good. they won. that was a close game. So i just wokek up and fell asleep with my jeans on, i hate when i do that. so now i think i need to get my little nighty on. I feel soo much more comfortable when i have it on. Its time for me to fix me some soup and watch some more t.v. and prolly fall asleep on the couch again. im sorry for canceling the show this sunday but i had warned u ahead of time i would prolly if i was still in pain. i dont want u to see me in pain and half out of it anyways;) but hopefully if i feel better tomorow ill do my show but i wont be sucking any cock:( sad enough to say. oh well i can still tease if im not out of it. Ok well time for me to go take some medication and i gotta get the soup cookin;) lol so think about me and if u would like to write me an email u can ill still check them;) hehe kisses and goodnight
Happy sweetest day!!! - October 15th, 2005
hey there everyone, well happy sweetest day! so im guessing a few of u are out with a girly tonight;) maybe at dinner or movie? well i just stayed in bed today:( havent done much all day, well one cool thing is i had a few of my guy friends cum and pick up my car and put a system in it. cool huh:) well i thought it would be cool to be riding down the road bumpin to some good music;) So i got 2 15 inch speakers and then a 1800 watt amp Plus this brand new pioneer c.d player i bought like 2 years ago and hadnt put in at all. So it was soo loud that my mirror came off!lol thats pretty funny. SO that was my sweetest day gift and i was soo happy to get something;) hehe but i felt alone:( i wish u could have been here to chill with me and maybe we could watch movies and stuff. Well my mouth is feelin ok with the medicine im great but after it wears off it starts to hurt and i really cant wait till i dont have holes in my gums anymore. i cant eat whatever i want and i miss it soo much! i love food;) oh well in a few more days it should get better. I hope u all have missed me;) and dont worry ill be back on this cumming sunday. ill be back in action;) hehe not sure about giving head at the moment but well i can still play around;) hehe Well i thought i would just pop my head in and say hey and i hope u all are having a great day;) sorry im not as much but ill be ok. time for some medicine and bed time , kisses and goodnight;)
had my surgery and i made it alive!llol - October 14th, 2005
hey there gus, well i am feeling like crap right now, and well i thought i would tell u that i had my surgery yesterday and everything turned out good! except the fact i didnt remeber anything. reaelly all i remeber was getting in the car and then going home and sleeping all day! sorry i didnt write u all yestrday but i didnt talk to anyone, well i couldnt really anyways but u know. Well when i went into the surgery room i was soo scared really, like shaking and stuff, they put that needle in me for the anastexia and then before i knew it i was out! it was nuts! i was trying to stay awake but u know i didnt rember anything and thats good tho. im still in pain but have been taking pain killers, so today i wake up and well i could taste blood it was nasty, so i just cleaned my mouth out and took some painkillers and had some mashed potatoes, so im trying to write u guys and see how everyone is before i pass out!lol oh yeah another thing my mom doesnt have to have surgery, im soo happy and she is too!! i dont know how she didnt have to have it but they told her she didnt. so thats a relief. anyways well i am going to go back to bed im feeling it start to kick in. talk to u tomorrow and hopefully ill feel alittle bit better;) kisses
the night before my surgery:( - October 12th, 2005
well hey there all, ok so today has just beeena horrible day for me. really it has, so i find out my mom broke her ankle and then i find out my aunt may have cancer all in 2 phone call back to back! and this is all this morning when i woke up. So i have been gone all day and just now got back. Its about 1030 and i need to go to bed, Im soo hungry tho but i cant eat and well i guess i should tell u well the ones that dont know yet, i get my wisdom teeth taken out tomorrow mornig and im scared as hell. First off just cuz i have never had a surgery and they are puttin me to sleep, second cuz wel ill be out of it, and im sad cuz i wont be having a show:( so i hope u all will pray for me before u go to bed;) hehe Ok so now i need to get a shower and get as much liquid as i can cuz after 12 i cant have any. but hopefully ill be in bed by then;) hehe Thanks for the emails i have recieved soo far! it means alot to me that u all care;) ill have to get some pics of me before and after!lol dont make fun of me, i dont know if i will put it up on my site tho. But anyways well i better get off here and get a shower and stuff, but dont be mad if i cant write tomorrow, i might be asleep the whole day:( wish u could be here and make me feel more comfortable:) ok well talk to u asap! write me if u want;) kisses
Just got home and getting ready - October 11th, 2005
hey there well im getting ready to go out tonight, since tomorrow night i will be staying in and i cant drink or eat anything past 8 pm tomorrow night. im soo sad:( but u know y, cuz i have my surgery to get my wisdom teeth take out. i hope everything turns out well. well i think i am going to eat all the hell i can cuz after tomorrow i wont be able to:( SO i hope u think about me lots when i wont be able to see u for a week:( i will still write and stuff but i will be out of it thursday. So dont be mad if i dont get on here and write;) but im sure i wil be able to. So tonight me and jayman are going to the strip club. oh yeah to go look at some pretty girls and get some lapdances,lol Well i got home alittle while ago from getting my oil changed in my car. I hate when i have to do that but i love it cuz i get to flirt with the guys. hehe Guys that are dirty hhhmm i like;) hehe ok well i think i better go see what kind of seductive outfit i can get 
wish u could go out with us, i think we would have lots of fun. I would give u a lapdance u know;) it would be soo good too, me rubbing all over ur cock, hhmm im gettin wet now thinking about it;) ok well i better go i still have to get a shower;)lol ok talk to u soon, kisses
had my show and was watching steelers! - October 10th, 2005
hey ther well today had been soo relaxin, i had alot of fun just going to the mall and having fun shopping around and buying stuff for myself;) lol So when i got home today i relaxed and watched some t.v. for alittle and then called up a friend;) hehe it was my webcam show tonight, so why not have some cock over;) lol SO i did and the show went well except towards the end, well he was a little nervous, but u have to think. im sure u would be too if u had sex infront of people around the world.lol wel i dont get nervous, it actually turns me on more! hehe i have been like that since the beginning. Anyways so after the show i watched the steelers and had to fix a bite to eat at half time. So my friend just left and i think im ready for bed. I have a show tomorrow morning at 9am. est time so i need my beauty rest;) So i think i will get my pj’s on and relax in my comfy bed alone:( wish u were here to tuck me in. WEll if u were here u wouldnt be tucking me in, lol u would be undressing me and messing around with me, right? hehe Ok well im going to bed, if u watch steelers game root for them, thats my team;) lol Ok goodnight to everyone and luv u lots! will be dreaming of u tonight;) kisses
Chillin watching the football games;) - October 9th, 2005
hehe so what does almost everyone do on sundays now? watch football:) hehe well this morning i got up, went by my family’s house and then one of my cuzins came by;) she looks just like me. So we hung out stopped by a few stores and then grabbed a bite to eat. Well we did talk about boys and stuff. So other then that i am having a few people over to watch the game at 830 and fix some steaks and stuff. Wish u could be here:( So i think i better get started cuz i have my show with u all at 11pm. Cant wait but i might be too stuffed to play around;) just kidding thats when u guys get me going;) Ok well as i said before for those who didnt get my message, i have my members show tonight and then also one tomorrow at 8pm. Not with camz. I cant wait to get real naughty and ill have my guest with me;) oh yeah time to maybe fuck or suck. Well i think i better get downstairs before someone gets here, i have to clean this place up alittle:) hehe ok well talk to u all tonight and hope u can make it;) kisses
just got back from a maze!!! eewww - October 8th, 2005
hehe hey there everyone, well cant talk that much i have a house full of people over here right now;) well not a house full but like a hand full, we just got back from this maze that was like 8 miles long! we got sooo lost and was out there actually for more then 2 hours. but it was lots of fun and differnt too;) I cant wait to go to the haunted house and stuff, we are trying to figure things out now. So hopefullu we will before it gets too late! i hope so, im ready to find a scary guy to have fun with behind cloesed doors;)lol Anyways another thing i thought i would mention real quick is i will have 2 members only webcam shows this week, dont forget im getting my wisdm teeth taken out this thursday, so i wont be on webcam show for a week. It depends on how bad the sweeling is;( Hopefull not too bad. but the times are sunday normal time 11pm. and then monday at 8pm. est so dont miss them. I cant wait , ok i gotta get back downstairs and see what is up;) have a great weekand, and talk to u tomorrow;) kisses